Mōdere Week #1

I think I am going to screw this up every week. It's difficult to get a measurement when measuring yourself.

Scale: 251.4

Neck: 19 Inches

Chest: 47.5 Inches

Biceps: 16 Inches

Waist: 47 Inches

Hips: 44 Inches

Thigh: 26 Inches

Calf: 17 Inches

Time to Reboot!

Wow! It's been three years since I last posted! Yikes! A lot has happened! 

So how is everyone doing? I guess you can see that I fell off the wagon and I am now at my heaviest in 3 years! Things certainly came to a stand still in 2020 with this whole pandemic. We can still feel it's affects in 2021.

Let's catch up!

In 2019, I fired my bariatric doctors. I seriously had to tell them "bye". The doctor had me see the nutritionists that worked within the practice. I was bounced between two of them and never seemed to be on the "same page." I told the doctor of this and was told "I'll take care of it and make sure you only see one." Did that happen? No ways! So I told them "Bye!!"

I did manage to get a personal trainer after that. He corrected my nutrition and worked with me in the gym. I was able to get down from 240 to 231. Yes, that 230 has still been elusive! Pandemic hit and I have not gone to him since.

Fortunately or unfortunately, I have been working from home and while it's good that I don't have to get dressed, fight all that traffic, and all that other stuff, I have become lazy. We have had 2 major shut downs in the state and currently, we are in the slow process of opening up.

In that slow process and even the uneasiness of things, the gyms were closed for sometime and are limited to a 20% capacity (50% starting tomorrow). I don't know how I feel about going back to the gym. I cannot see myself in an indoor area, let alone having to wear a mask while working out. I am still not able to see my trainer in the meantime.

Then of course, this happened. As the world stood still, so did my lifestyle. We couldn't go out, the parks were closed, people we getting cited for even cutting through the park to get from one point to another.

Living here in Hawai'i, of course we rely heavily on things being imported, so much of my at home workout things were delayed for months.

Slowly its being mounted on the walls and I am just staring at it, well for now.

I have to admit however, at one point, I did hit 229, but it was for a short period of time. It was at that point, I skyrocketed 30 pounds! Not to mention I was fat shammed, so I told myself, I need to get by butt going again.

With the encouragement of a friend, I decided to try this Modere line of products. This is their Lean Body System. You're suppose to take this syrup thing in the morning (to me it was like eating straight chocolate frosting), a pill three times a day with a meal, and drink a digestive for three consecutive days. 

In addition, you are suppose to choose three habits to stick to as you go through this program.

A. Drink 5 (12oz) glasses of water

B. Avoid Sugary Drinks

C. Walk 7,500 Steps

D. Don't eat fried foods

E. Eliminate white flour, rice, and sugar

Maybe I am taking the easy way out of this one, but I chose the first three, since I pretty much already do that and I am VERY close to 7,500 its a day.

In doing this, I decided to reboot this blog to chronicle this journey, since you're suppose to take pics and take measurements. So since I've already have been doing this via this blog, I may as well kill two birds with one stone right?

So here is to a new journey......AGAIN!

April Update

I know I haven't been keeping up on this, or my journey to weight loss. In the months that I have not been blogging, I have managed to pretty much gaining back all the weight. Almost.....

I ditched my Bariatric Doctor and her two dietitians. They were just not on the same page with each other, so I told them I cannot be coming back because they were getting me super confused.

Went back to my Vegan habits, with some moments of cheating, and I guess that has not helped the cause......






Recently found the REDCON1 line of products. For those of you who know that line, yes, I know it's animal proteins..... Forgive me for being hypocritical, yikes!

I do this "Double Tap" drink first thing in the morning. It's a bit sweet for me, but I can appreciate it and tolerate it. After a while, I feel like typing like this:

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Its a high fat burning, extreme energy drink that has me all jittery! The description states :"Body fat literally melts off while dramatically improving energy even in a caloric deficit. Mental clarity is profoundly increased." Sounds good right???

Then for breakfast, I have this "MRE Lite" meal replacement shake. And let me tell you........Let me tell you........ It's probably the best meal replacement shake I've ever had......EVER! The taste is great, I feel full, the taste is great, easy to drink, and did I mention, it taste great? Banana Nut Bread and Strawberry Shortcake! How could you NOT love those flavors???

 Then twice, I take these "Silencer" horse pills. Yes, they are huge tablets! I have to cut them in half. Four of these pill cut in half, oh my goodness! Had to make sure I had lots of water and chase it down with something. My first time, I was gagging! What's great is, its stimulant free, so I can take one in the mid morning, and one right before bed and I can sleep.




All in all, yes, my goal is still to lose weight and be healthy. I goofed off a bit, don't judge me! Hahahaha! This is my second full day on this, and I have lost 3 pounds already. Here's to new beginnings!!

I just realized that this is my first post of 2019. Happy Belated New Years!!!

ZOZOSUIT! Customized clothing and all this high tech stuff!

I was scrolling through Facebook the other day and this ad appeared for ZOZO Suit. Apparently this was a thing that came out from Japan in which the company sends you this black spandex-type suit with all these white dots on it, and you stand in front of your phone and takes pictures of you and it will give you your measurements and from there, you can go through this catalogue and buy clothes that will fit you.

Being the skeptic I am, I kind of brushed it off, since the suit was free, however, you had to pay $10 in shipping. However, the next day, there was a post of free shipping, so I went for it. All I had to do was give my height, weight and sex.

In a matter of days, the package arrived in the mail and decided to give it a try.

In a matter of days, the package containing the suit arrived. I opened it and set up my camera and donned the suit. I wasn't a one piece suit, but a pants and shirt.  Following the directions, It was suppose to take several pictures in the 12-11 o'clock positions. Sound easy right??? WRONG!!! It took me three toys before getting my measurements.

 I think I am going to try and do this more often to see how my measurements go, as I lose the weight. It should be interesting!!! I may not shop, but would be neat to see the changes.

Check Up Time! (Ideal Protein Program?)

Went in to see my dietitian today to check up to see how I was doing. I told her that I am having a hard time, and that the vegan lifestyle is really what I want to continue.

My weight did go down, but not the significant weight lose you see in a Ketogenic Diet. For me, it's been a mixture of vegan and Keto, which the dietitian stated was ok,  it was just that the weight wasn't going to come down super fast. I was okay with that.
She introduced this "Ideal Protein" Program as an alternative to look at, especially because I didn't know what to cook some times. It comes with all of these toys and coaching and the high point, pre-packaged food!!!

So there are 4 phases to this. The first phase you follow until your weight loss goal is achieved. The 2 14-day phases in which there is a gradual reintroduction of healthy carbs and fats, and then a maintenance phase which is about a year.

Tempting, very tempting. But I don't know about the idea of a $100 initial fee to start, and then approximately $25 a day just for the food and supplements alone, plus you still have to buy some of your proteins and vegetables........

Sorry, I think I am going to sit this one out.

On the other hand, she did increase my cars levels and my protein levels. So at least I have a little more leeway.

Awaiting the Hurricane

We are all awaiting the potential impact of Hurricane Lane. As of this morning, this catagory 4 hurricane is forecasted to bush up really close to the islands, bringing potentially high winds, heavy showers and high surf.

We've been busy around the house getting things ready, putting things away and enduring long lines to but the last minute things and fill up gas.

In moments like this? Especially once we go into survival mode, I think diet goes out the door. Give me my bottled water, spam, vienna sausages, and instant ramen! I don't think the Keto Gods will mind.

Second Guessing the Whole Keto Thing

So as you can see, my weight is slowly creeping back up. I don't know if there is any correlation between the weight gain and the start of this whole Ketogenic Diet. All I can say is I am miserable, I am not liking the entire idea of eating meat. I was loving the whole Vegan/Vegetarian lifestyle, since there was not as many restrictions as with a Keto Diet.

I recently did some blood work, and really, the numbers were low, but since doing the Vegan/Vegetarian thing, it has been low. The big plus, I was losing weight. Not as fast as the Keto Diet, but I was still losing.

Kind of second guessing this whole idea of my future with this Keto Diet. I would rather live a happy life losing weight, versus living a miserable life losing weight.

On a more positive note, I like that I can wear some of the clothes that I haven't been able to wear in like some 10 years. I am not too sure why I kept clothes for 10 years, but yeah......

Still at the gym working out and swimming. I am finding that I am spending a lot more time there, than before. That's a good thing right?

Summer is Here!

Well, it's now July and the kick off to the summer! July greeted me with the scale and I not being friends. I have gained some weight back. It's so easy to blame others, but really, in my mind, I feel that as of right now, it's refining this whole Keto diet thing.

What threw a wrench in the whole "system" was that on this past dietitian and bariatric doctor, visitation, I saw a different dietician who had a whole different philosophy, goals, and thoughts. So in doing what I was told by the previous dietician, it did not meet the expectations of this dietician. I left being all confused. No consistency......

For my next visitation, I have already asked to see the previous dietician to make it more consistent.

First appointment since going Keto

I went in for my first doctor's appointment, since the bariatric doctor put me on this Ketogenic Diet. Earlier in the morning, I received a text on my phone that my blood lab report was done and available for me to read.

To my amazement, as much as I have been suffering for starch, the numbers have dropped significantly! Things that were high, and needed to watch out for, are all down!

At the appointment, the scale at the office, I lost 4 pounds since my last visit. I'll take that! Will be getting a nutritionist to be working with. I was telling the doctor that I was going blind in all of this, since much of the information isn't consistent as far as what I can, and call not eat.

Kinobody: Has Anyone Done This?

Recently, this banner has been popping up on my screen. It's apparently a form of weight loss program designed to shed body fat and have that great body in a short period of time. Apparently, it's what Hollywood actors use to get that "chiseled" body right before they start to film a movie. Sounds pretty awesome doesn't it? Too good to be true? Hard to tell.

This program revolves around some dude by the name of Greg O'Gallagher. He looks like some cocky bastard you'd like to slap, just because. To start, you take a simple survey to see which of his programs fits the goals you want to achieve. From there, you are match either with:

• The Warrior Physique
• The Greek God Physique
• The Superhero Physique
• The Goddess Toning Program
• Aggressive Fat Loss 2.0

So being the inquisitive person I am, I was matched with the "Aggressive Fat Loss 2.0" Program, like that is a no brainer. So from here, I fork over $66 (not including some discounts that they promise for subscribing to e-mail newsletters) and I am suppose to get a lifetime subscription to a collection of 45 minute work outs to do at the gym (including how to effectively use the weights the gym),  a "Complete" aggressive fat loss manual, and "Complete" diet and nutrition guide. (I still don't understand why businesses use the word "complete". Is it a marketing ploy to get the consumer to think, "WOW! I'm getting the whole program versus half!"?

Anyhow, so of course it's all digital and so I won't be getting anything physical, and I am assuming I can start as soon as it gets delivered into my e-mail inbox, with tons of advertisements for their other products.

One of the highlights is this idea of "Intermittent Fasting." The theory is to not have breakfast. By fasting 4-7 hours after you wake up, growth hormone levels rise, this helps preserve muscle mass and shifts fuel metabolism to fat burning. Then have two super big meals with lots of proteins and few carbs. Each meal should start with 1-2 servings of fruits.

I am very skeptical about this. $66 is not a lot when you compare it to a lot of similar weight loss programs on the market. It does come with a 30 day many back guarantee if you don't like it. 

Has anyone done this? Does it work? Worth it?

If you want to check it out, here is the link: Kinobody

Good Lord It's April! Lets Catch Up!

Hi!

Sorry, I haven't had the time to blog in what seems like forever! Thank you to Nikki over at Fat Girl Won't Run for checking up on me!

Ok, so lets catch up!

I continue my relentless journey to regain my health, and I can tell you, it's still up and down for me. I have gone back to that infamous 230 doldrum once again, however I can tell you that I have been needing to buy new clothes and or I have been able to wear clothes that I haven't been able to wear in years. That's good right??? One of the suggestions that I have been getting is since I am losing so much, I should shop at Ross instead of the normal places I usually shop. What do you guys do? It sounds fair to me!! The 230 mark has been an average. I have been obsessed with jumping on the scale every morning (maybe I shouldn't be doing that) and it has been 230 plus or minus a couple of pounds. To mark April 2018 in my Update Pictures section, you can see that I am 231.2. 

I went to see a bariatric doctor and she put me on a Ketogenic Diet. It's been a bit crazy, because it is a complete 360 from the vegan/vegetarian diet I have been on. Meat, meat, meat! I was sick the first couple of days. No carbs, no sugar is a little crazy for me. In my opinion, and I could be wrong, that is what is making my weight inconsistent these past couple of weeks, as my body is starting to get use to this new diet.

It comes at a point when we discovered the "Gardenin" line of meatless products. Now that I have to actually read labels, many of those products, I shouldn't be eating. It's been a little confusing since the doctor said I could continue with those things.

There has been a lot of pros and cons to this "Keto" Diet. I am just putting my faith into the doctor right now. I guess it's good for my brain too, I have to read labels, do math, and make the right decisions on what to eat.

Still getting my regular massages. My therapist has included stretching into the regimen. So I have been feeling really good after the sessions. This week, I will be treated to a hot stone massage. Very stoked for that!

I had a Thai Massage session. That was pretty bad. I think that business is a little sketchy now that I have had some time to decompress from the situation. No certificates hanging on the wall, no asking me where I am in pain. Just 90 minutes of sheer torment and torture. All the ethics of how a massage is suppose to be preformed went out of the window. That was bad, not going back ever!

And Then IT HAPPENED!!!

Woke up this morning early since I had an early morning meeting to attend. As part of my morning ritual, I jumped on the scale, and there it was.......

228.6lbs

Very stoked! Small dance of celebration around the scale, but deep in my head, I remembered the doctor's scale was eight pounds more than what my scale at home reads. So I think I am headed in the right direction, consistency is the key.  I figure once this scale reads "222 lbs." I think I can officially say I am at 230 lbs. This is awesome! Very stoked at all of my accomplishments thus far! The journey has only begun, and hopefully keeps going down.

Energy levels are getting much higher. Instead of "Oh my God, I only went around the neighborhood once?" Its more like "Hey, why not one or tow more times around the neighborhood!" Swimming more, still apprehensive about the gym, even though I have help.

Feeling great!

Look out doldrum 200 lbs.! I am coming to get you with a vengeance!!!

STILL Stuck!

It's been 11 days since I last posted about how I was in the doldrums. Well guess what?


I still am! Its a weird feeling to all of a sudden hit this plateau. This time around, I have to admit, my weight isn't fluctuating as it marches to 230 like in previous attempts. It's more of a freaken tease!

I am at 230, however its what comes after that. 230.8, 230.5, 230.7. Grrrrrrr! This morning the scale read 230.0, so I have high hopes for tomorrow.

Recently, I got a call from my massage therapist and he said that he was going to incorporate some stretching in to my sessions with him. After his brief pitch about how good was and how it would a great supplement to my massage, I agreed. Then I joked around with him and said, "You sure you want to be stuck with me for 2 hours?" He laughed and said "No worries!"

This should be interesting.............

In the Doldrums Once Again

I jumped on the scale once again and I have hit 230. Before I left on my little "vaca" I was at 230, and once again this morning I am at 230. I've been like this before where I just cannot cross over that threshold of 230.

There have been several instances in the past couple years when I have been stuck here at this point. Another threshold that is an affliction was at that 200 lbs. mark, but that was like a good 10-11 years ago.

Most of the time, out of frustration, this is the point where I always quit. I don't know what it is about my mind that just cannot get over the fact that I just need that little more edge to push me over. This time, I think I have the drive to do it...........

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The Yoga Studio That I Didn't Know Existed: Please Keep Your Sweat To Yourself!

Yesterday, I came home to discover a box delivered to my front door. It seemed odd, since I didn't order anything or no one told me they were sending me something. I looked at it and immediately saw that obviously the mail man delivered this box to the wrong address.

So like the nice person I am, I jumped into my car and went to go deliver it. After all, it was just down the road. I would have walked over, but it was storming!

So I arrived and quickly noticed that there was a yoga studio that I swear was not here before. Here in my area, there have been a lot of business closing and new ones popping up. So I was surprised that this place was here. I don't even remember was was at this location previously!

Well, I enter and quickly notice the gross smell of sweaty gym socks. It was hella gross! Like I wanted to throw up! I walked on over and with an innocent, as if I didn't notice the smell attitude, and handed the lady at the counter the package and told her that this was delivered to me by accident.

Then as if things weren't any worse, the studio doors opened and the wafting smell of sweat and heat came spewing out as the class ended and the people exited.

"That's our Birkham Yoga Class!" The lady said enthusiastically. As if I cared, I replied, "Oh, ok, that's nice! A lot of people!"

Ok, so I am sure there are a lot of benefits to this, and I am not knocking it down or anything, but from an outsider's point of view, let us take into consideration the words the lady at the front desk stated, as she tried to get me to attend a class:

1. The room temperature is anywhere between 95-110 degrees Fahrenheit.
2. The humidity in the room is anywhere between 40-60 percent.
3. In a 90 minute class, you do 26 postures.
4. People have been noted to pass out from overheating and dehydration.
5. Don wear clothes you would normally go to a regular yoga class to. Less is best, for wider mobility. If you wear clothing like this, it can impede the flow of blood and increase your chances of becoming lightheaded. (aka, go shirtless, spandex, spandex, spandex!)

Umm, why do people do this? Yes, I want to lose weight, not not while on the verge of death and smelling like death!

I told the lady thank you and made my way to my car. I could still smell the sweat on me! It invaded my car! I didn't even participate and I had to go home and shower!!!!!

Spiritual Retreat: The Much Needed Vacation for My Body and Soul

A friend of mine called me last week saying that he had planned to go to a weekend retreat, in which one was able to relax, get massages, meditate, and "rediscover yourself." I replied back "Hey! Thats sounds great! I am sure you are going to enjoy it!"

"No, YOU'RE going to enjoy it!" he replied back. I was dumbfounded. Apparently he had made arrangements at this retreat but was not able to go, and since it was so last minute, he wasn't going to get his money back, so he asked me to fill in. I figure it was a great moment to run away from this crazy world, at least for a couple days.

All excited, I packed and off I was. Little did I know what I was getting myself into. Words like "fitness assessment", "functional fitness, "spin", and "pilates" were being thrown at me. I was getting overwhelmed. Was this my friend's trick on me? I asked, "Where does the meditation, massage, and relaxation part come in?" The lady smiled, and said, "Don't worry, you'll do all of that too!"

That smile seemed a little cynical. I was worried. I so wanted to go home. But I remained open minded and went forward. After going to my room, I had my "fitness assessment" done. I could tell the guy wanted to choose his words correctly as to not hurt my feelings of being obviously obese. "At least you are outside of the Obese Class III level." Was that suppose to make me feel good?

A lot of the activities made me fight my internal demons and pushed the outer limits of my comfort level. Especially when new things that I have never tried was introduced. Barre, Spin, and Pilates were absolutely crazy! But some of the yoga, suspension straps, and stretching classes were totally awesome! I could do those!!

The sunset meditation yoga was hella awesome! It was well worth going through the sheer torture and body abuse during the day. Beautiful view of the sunset, relaxation, and not so strenuous yoga poses was just my speed.

The massages were "interesting" to say the least. There is nothing like being massaged on the beach under a canopy and being able to hear the waves, feel the breeze and enjoy the view. Although the choice of attire was a little unsettling. Disposable thong or disposable boxers. That was just too odd. I am so use to just going to my monthly massage appointment in just my boxers, but disposable, one size fits some, paper feeling undergarments. I didn't even think these existed!!!! I prefer my personal massage therapist, but she did a  great job! I swear she was practicing her WWE moves on me!

Of course food is important. I think they spend more time on their amenities than their food. Fresh vegetables, probably, presentation, meeh, I could probably do better at home, but I was too busy enjoying the moment to even think of food!

All in all, it was a great experience. Too bad Monday had to occur in my life......

Mindfulness Yoga

Yesterday, I posted about how I really wasn't into the Super Bowl Game, so I was going to check out the Mindfulness Yoga class. I admit, I was a bit hesitant at first, but decided to go. But it wasn't without more demons in my head.

It took me a good thirty minutes to decide what to wear. It's typically me. I was thinking what others have worn in previous yoga classes that I have taken previously, and also looking on the internet to see what was done in the class.

It was storming and so I really didn't want to wear too much and be all soaking wet, being that I didn't want to change in the locker room and risk my stuff being stolen. t-shirts, after t-shirts, shorts, after shorts, I finally decided and was out the door.

I made my way to the room after checking in, and maneuvered my way covertly to the corner of the room, so as to be my invisible self, and not to attract unwanted attention. There were only a few people there, and like any other yoga class, the majority were women and a few men.

One thing I can appreciate about Yoga, is that even the most experienced person can look unseasoned, so at first, it was a little overwhelming to see the guy next to me out stretching and letting his breathing be heard.

As the class started, the lights went dim, the new-age meditation music started and the instructor started to talk. She pointed out that this was less about the posture and the poses and more about what your body is trying to tell you. I think I can handle that......

We start off with meditation and some breathing exercises. There have been a lot of postings on Facebook about people passing gas in Yoga classes, so that is running through my head. I commanded/demanded my self that I am not going to be one of them, or I too will have to suffer the defeat and embarrassment of the whole situation and write an article of my humiliation.

"Kindess and acceptance" was the key to all the movements and poses we were doing. Since this was more of being connected to what the body was saying to you, I think a lot of the experienced Yoga people were having a little hard time. I guess it's a different mindset from regular Yoga classes, I was just concentrating on myself and not farting!!!

All in all, it was a good session. There is nothing like being able to put your legs up on the wall and not getting busted!

The Super Bowl Hype That Didn't Happen

For millions today, they will be waking up early to preform their yearly Super Bowl Rites and Rituals in order to get ready for today's game. Unfortunately, I am not one of them this year.

As much as I am a sports junkie, I somehow cannot muster up the excitement for this years game. Yes, I am happy that a team that has not been to a Super Bowl in a while has made it this far, but that is about it.

All the hype of a weird year, that is the NFL, will come down to today. Taking a knee for the National Anthem, outrageous fines, what ever, it will surely take center stage this evening.

One report says that the NFL has lost touch with it's base and that includes me. I think in this whole season, I've watched only one game, and not even in it's entirety.

This morning, I went the market to pick up a few things. It was not as packed with people in previous years. Maybe everyone went last night. Who knows. But it just does not feel like a festive moment today.

I think I'll hit up the gym while the game is going on and then maybe hit the mall. I am in need of new clothes. There is only so much a belt can do. I also signed up for a "mindful yoga" class, so we'll see how that goes.

One Month Anniversary

One month ago, we ushered in 2018 with many goals and aspirations. I told myself I was going to gain better control over my health and my body. Unlike any resolutions I've made in the past, I think this one by far, is probably the only resolution I have kept this long.

Yes, it is due to many people, not just me, and through all the feelings of failures and successes, I think I am on the right track to becoming healthier. My doctor talked about consistency yesterday, so in using the same scale, in the same place, every day, I have lost (according to my scale....see previous post) 16 pounds in one month. Hmm, now that I see that, is that healthy???

I am feeling great (well, I still resisted wanting to post pictures of my body, but its up...blah!), confronting the demons in my mind, and yesterday's physical gives me hope and confidence that I am doing something good.

I don't know how true the stats are on this Blogger Stats thing, but over 200 people have jumped on this blog to see what in the world this guy is up to, no subscribers (please subscribe!), but that is okay! I thank you for coming by to read my posts, see my pictures and comment here and there. I try to reply back, so please feel free to comment! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!! It is because of all of you I am continuing this fight, hopefully I am inspiring you to join the crusade to reclaim your health and lose weight! Hey, if I can do it, SO CAN YOU!!!

Here's to a great emotional one month! Lets eat steak! NOT!

The Tale of Two Scales

I went in for my doctor's appointment. I admit, I was filled with mixed emotions going into it. I have full of hopes being that the scale was moving in the direction that I wanted it to go. I was optimistic and yet open to hear what he was going to say about the numbers I produced through my blood test.

The first thing I did this morning was jump on the scale to see how much I weighed going into this appointment. Now according to my scale, since I first started this whole thing, I am suppose to have lost a total of 15 pounds!!! Great right? I was all happy!!!

Fast forward to my jumping on the scale at the doctor's office. What does it read? 241!!! No! That can't be right!!!! But then 7 pounds isn't too bad too, right? How can my scale be off by 8 lbs.?

Immediately in my head that stupid Christmas song "The Restroom Door Said Gentleman" played in my head. Someone must be playing a joke on me! Blah!!! All my confidence just went down the toilet. However, that pep talk from "Superhero Man" started to play in my head. It must have had a calming affect on me because my blood pressure wasn't high.

As if to play on my nerves, the next 45 minutes waiting in the exam room was pure torture! All those stupid comic strips of being over weight, not exercising and eating right seemed to be laughing at me!

First thing the doctor walks in, he is looking at the notes and blurts out, "Not bad, you lost 4 pounds since I last saw you!" In a total unprecedented moment of utter self defeat, I said "Dems fighting words!" He looked at me and I started to tell him how disappointed I was that in my books, I had lost  15 lbs., but really only 4 lbs., and that I was a little upset that my scale was off by 8 lbs.

He laughed and was explaining how all scales are different and how even in his office al this scales read differently, the main thing is to be consistant. Blah, was that suppose to comfort me? To comfort myself, since his words were lack luster, I drew things out on paper, and this is going to be my official story if people ask me about today's visit. I think it's totally plausible.

So if I was 245 lbs at my last doctor's visit, my scale would have read 237 lbs. Since then, the holidays happened, and so I could see myself hitting 248 lbs on my scale on January 1st. On the doctor's scale it would have read 256 lbs. I have been that heavy previously. So then at my next weight in on January 8, my scale read 240 lbs., and so my doctor's scale would have read  248 lbs. So then today would make total sense, 233 lbs. on my scale and 241 lbs on the doctor's scale! So maybe there is something to that consistency thing. Sorry Doc, you right!

As far as my numbers from the blood test, he says that there is nothing really to worry about. It's a mix of genetics, false positives as my triglycerides is now way down, but my cholesterol is still a little high. So there is some stuff I can still work on.

All in all, I am ok with the outcome, there is still a lot more work to be done. I think at this point I am good with the direction I am going, considering that I have no map in front of me, and "just shooting from the hips", as they say.