Wednesday, October 24, 2018

ZOZOSUIT! Customized clothing and all this high tech stuff!

I was scrolling through Facebook the other day and this ad appeared for ZOZO Suit. Apparently this was a thing that came out from Japan in which the company sends you this black spandex-type suit with all these white dots on it, and you stand in front of your phone and takes pictures of you and it will give you your measurements and from there, you can go through this catalogue and buy clothes that will fit you.

Being the skeptic I am, I kind of brushed it off, since the suit was free, however, you had to pay $10 in shipping. However, the next day, there was a post of free shipping, so I went for it. All I had to do was give my height, weight and sex.

In a matter of days, the package arrived in the mail and decided to give it a try.

In a matter of days, the package containing the suit arrived. I opened it and set up my camera and donned the suit. I wasn't a one piece suit, but a pants and shirt.  Following the directions, It was suppose to take several pictures in the 12-11 o'clock positions. Sound easy right??? WRONG!!! It took me three toys before getting my measurements.

 I think I am going to try and do this more often to see how my measurements go, as I lose the weight. It should be interesting!!! I may not shop, but would be neat to see the changes.

Friday, September 7, 2018

Check Up Time! (Ideal Protein Program?)

Went in to see my dietitian today to check up to see how I was doing. I told her that I am having a hard time, and that the vegan lifestyle is really what I want to continue.

My weight did go down, but not the significant weight lose you see in a Ketogenic Diet. For me, it's been a mixture of vegan and Keto, which the dietitian stated was ok,  it was just that the weight wasn't going to come down super fast. I was okay with that.
She introduced this "Ideal Protein" Program as an alternative to look at, especially because I didn't know what to cook some times. It comes with all of these toys and coaching and the high point, pre-packaged food!!!

So there are 4 phases to this. The first phase you follow until your weight loss goal is achieved. The 2 14-day phases in which there is a gradual reintroduction of healthy carbs and fats, and then a maintenance phase which is about a year.

Tempting, very tempting. But I don't know about the idea of a $100 initial fee to start, and then approximately $25 a day just for the food and supplements alone, plus you still have to buy some of your proteins and vegetables........


Sorry, I think I am going to sit this one out.

On the other hand, she did increase my cars levels and my protein levels. So at least I have a little more leeway.

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Awaiting the Hurricane

We are all awaiting the potential impact of Hurricane Lane. As of this morning, this catagory 4 hurricane is forecasted to bush up really close to the islands, bringing potentially high winds, heavy showers and high surf.

We've been busy around the house getting things ready, putting things away and enduring long lines to but the last minute things and fill up gas.

In moments like this? Especially once we go into survival mode, I think diet goes out the door. Give me my bottled water, spam, vienna sausages, and instant ramen! I don't think the Keto Gods will mind.

Tuesday, August 7, 2018

Second Guessing the Whole Keto Thing

So as you can see, my weight is slowly creeping back up. I don't know if there is any correlation between the weight gain and the start of this whole Ketogenic Diet. All I can say is I am miserable, I am not liking the entire idea of eating meat. I was loving the whole Vegan/Vegetarian lifestyle, since there was not as many restrictions as with a Keto Diet.

I recently did some blood work, and really, the numbers were low, but since doing the Vegan/Vegetarian thing, it has been low. The big plus, I was losing weight. Not as fast as the Keto Diet, but I was still losing.

Kind of second guessing this whole idea of my future with this Keto Diet. I would rather live a happy life losing weight, versus living a miserable life losing weight.

On a more positive note, I like that I can wear some of the clothes that I haven't been able to wear in like some 10 years. I am not too sure why I kept clothes for 10 years, but yeah......

Still at the gym working out and swimming. I am finding that I am spending a lot more time there, than before. That's a good thing right?

Sunday, July 1, 2018

Summer is Here!

Well, it's now July and the kick off to the summer! July greeted me with the scale and I not being friends. I have gained some weight back. It's so easy to blame others, but really, in my mind, I feel that as of right now, it's refining this whole Keto diet thing.

What threw a wrench in the whole "system" was that on this past dietitian and bariatric doctor, visitation, I saw a different dietician who had a whole different philosophy, goals, and thoughts. So in doing what I was told by the previous dietician, it did not meet the expectations of this dietician. I left being all confused. No consistency......

For my next visitation, I have already asked to see the previous dietician to make it more consistent.

Tuesday, May 1, 2018

First appointment since going Keto

I went in for my first doctor's appointment, since the bariatric doctor put me on this Ketogenic Diet. Earlier in the morning, I received a text on my phone that my blood lab report was done and available for me to read.

To my amazement, as much as I have been suffering for starch, the numbers have dropped significantly! Things that were high, and needed to watch out for, are all down!

At the appointment, the scale at the office, I lost 4 pounds since my last visit. I'll take that! Will be getting a nutritionist to be working with. I was telling the doctor that I was going blind in all of this, since much of the information isn't consistent as far as what I can, and call not eat.

Thursday, April 19, 2018

Kinobody: Has Anyone Done This?

Recently, this banner has been popping up on my screen. It's apparently a form of weight loss program designed to shed body fat and have that great body in a short period of time. Apparently, it's what Hollywood actors use to get that "chiseled" body right before they start to film a movie. Sounds pretty awesome doesn't it? Too good to be true? Hard to tell.

This program revolves around some dude by the name of Greg O'Gallagher. He looks like some cocky bastard you'd like to slap, just because. To start, you take a simple survey to see which of his programs fits the goals you want to achieve. From there, you are match either with:


  • The Warrior Physique
  • The Greek God Physique
  • The Superhero Physique
  • The Goddess Toning Program
  • Aggressive Fat Loss 2.0
So being the inquisitive person I am, I was matched with the "Aggressive Fat Loss 2.0" Program, like that is a no brainer. So from here, I fork over $66 (not including some discounts that they promise for subscribing to e-mail newsletters) and I am suppose to get a lifetime subscription to a collection of 45 minute work outs to do at the gym (including how to effectively use the weights the gym),  a "Complete" aggressive fat loss manual, and "Complete" diet and nutrition guide. (I still don't understand why businesses use the word "complete". Is it a marketing ploy to get the consumer to think, "WOW! I'm getting the whole program versus half!"?

Anyhow, so of course it's all digital and so I won't be getting anything physical, and I am assuming I can start as soon as it gets delivered into my e-mail inbox, with tons of advertisements for their other products.

One of the highlights is this idea of "Intermittent Fasting." The theory is to not have breakfast. By fasting 4-7 hours after you wake up, growth hormone levels rise, this helps preserve muscle mass and shifts fuel metabolism to fat burning. Then have two super big meals with lots of proteins and few carbs. Each meal should start with 1-2 servings of fruits.

I am very skeptical about this. $66 is not a lot when you compare it to a lot of similar weight loss programs on the market. It does come with a 30 day many back guarantee if you don't like it. 

Has anyone done this? Does it work? Worth it?

If you want to check it out, here is the link: Kinobody

Monday, April 2, 2018

Good Lord It's April! Lets Catch Up!

Hi!
Sorry, I haven't had the time to blog in what seems like forever! Thank you to Nikki over at Fat Girl Won't Run for checking up on me!

Ok, so lets catch up!
I continue my relentless journey to regain my health, and I can tell you, it's still up and down for me. I have gone back to that infamous 230 doldrum once again, however I can tell you that I have been needing to buy new clothes and or I have been able to wear clothes that I haven't been able to wear in years. That's good right??? One of the suggestions that I have been getting is since I am losing so much, I should shop at Ross instead of the normal places I usually shop. What do you guys do? It sounds fair to me!! The 230 mark has been an average. I have been obsessed with jumping on the scale every morning (maybe I shouldn't be doing that) and it has been 230 plus or minus a couple of pounds. To mark April 2018 in my Update Pictures section, you can see that I am 231.2. 

I went to see a bariatric doctor and she put me on a Ketogenic Diet. It's been a bit crazy, because it is a complete 360 from the vegan/vegetarian diet I have been on. Meat, meat, meat! I was sick the first couple of days. No carbs, no sugar is a little crazy for me. In my opinion, and I could be wrong, that is what is making my weight inconsistent these past couple of weeks, as my body is starting to get use to this new diet.

It comes at a point when we discovered the "Gardenin" line of meatless products. Now that I have to actually read labels, many of those products, I shouldn't be eating. It's been a little confusing since the doctor said I could continue with those things.

There has been a lot of pros and cons to this "Keto" Diet. I am just putting my faith into the doctor right now. I guess it's good for my brain too, I have to read labels, do math, and make the right decisions on what to eat.

Still getting my regular massages. My therapist has included stretching into the regimen. So I have been feeling really good after the sessions. This week, I will be treated to a hot stone massage. Very stoked for that!

I had a Thai Massage session. That was pretty bad. I think that business is a little sketchy now that I have had some time to decompress from the situation. No certificates hanging on the wall, no asking me where I am in pain. Just 90 minutes of sheer torment and torture. All the ethics of how a massage is suppose to be preformed went out of the window. That was bad, not going back ever!



Tuesday, February 27, 2018

And Then IT HAPPENED!!!

Woke up this morning early since I had an early morning meeting to attend. As part of my morning ritual, I jumped on the scale, and there it was.......

228.6lbs

Very stoked! Small dance of celebration around the scale, but deep in my head, I remembered the doctor's scale was eight pounds more than what my scale at home reads. So I think I am headed in the right direction, consistency is the key.  I figure once this scale reads "222 lbs." I think I can officially say I am at 230 lbs. This is awesome! Very stoked at all of my accomplishments thus far! The journey has only begun, and hopefully keeps going down.

Energy levels are getting much higher. Instead of "Oh my God, I only went around the neighborhood once?" Its more like "Hey, why not one or tow more times around the neighborhood!" Swimming more, still apprehensive about the gym, even though I have help.

Feeling great!

Look out doldrum 200 lbs.! I am coming to get you with a vengeance!!!

Monday, February 26, 2018

STILL Stuck!

It's been 11 days since I last posted about how I was in the doldrums. Well guess what?


I still am! Its a weird feeling to all of a sudden hit this plateau. This time around, I have to admit, my weight isn't fluctuating as it marches to 230 like in previous attempts. It's more of a freaken tease!

I am at 230, however its what comes after that. 230.8, 230.5, 230.7. Grrrrrrr! This morning the scale read 230.0, so I have high hopes for tomorrow.

Recently, I got a call from my massage therapist and he said that he was going to incorporate some stretching in to my sessions with him. After his brief pitch about how good was and how it would a great supplement to my massage, I agreed. Then I joked around with him and said, "You sure you want to be stuck with me for 2 hours?" He laughed and said "No worries!"

This should be interesting.............

Thursday, February 15, 2018

In the Doldrums Once Again

I jumped on the scale once again and I have hit 230. Before I left on my little "vaca" I was at 230, and once again this morning I am at 230. I've been like this before where I just cannot cross over that threshold of 230.

There have been several instances in the past couple years when I have been stuck here at this point. Another threshold that is an affliction was at that 200 lbs. mark, but that was like a good 10-11 years ago.

Most of the time, out of frustration, this is the point where I always quit. I don't know what it is about my mind that just cannot get over the fact that I just need that little more edge to push me over. This time, I think I have the drive to do it...........

Yeah
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Wednesday, February 14, 2018

The Yoga Studio That I Didn't Know Existed: Please Keep Your Sweat To Yourself!

Yesterday, I came home to discover a box delivered to my front door. It seemed odd, since I didn't order anything or no one told me they were sending me something. I looked at it and immediately saw that obviously the mail man delivered this box to the wrong address.

So like the nice person I am, I jumped into my car and went to go deliver it. After all, it was just down the road. I would have walked over, but it was storming!

So I arrived and quickly noticed that there was a yoga studio that I swear was not here before. Here in my area, there have been a lot of business closing and new ones popping up. So I was surprised that this place was here. I don't even remember was was at this location previously!

Well, I enter and quickly notice the gross smell of sweaty gym socks. It was hella gross! Like I wanted to throw up! I walked on over and with an innocent, as if I didn't notice the smell attitude, and handed the lady at the counter the package and told her that this was delivered to me by accident.

Then as if things weren't any worse, the studio doors opened and the wafting smell of sweat and heat came spewing out as the class ended and the people exited.

"That's our Birkham Yoga Class!" The lady said enthusiastically. As if I cared, I replied, "Oh, ok, that's nice! A lot of people!"

Ok, so I am sure there are a lot of benefits to this, and I am not knocking it down or anything, but from an outsider's point of view, let us take into consideration the words the lady at the front desk stated, as she tried to get me to attend a class:


  1. The room temperature is anywhere between 95-110 degrees Fahrenheit.
  2. The humidity in the room is anywhere between 40-60 percent.
  3. In a 90 minute class, you do 26 postures.
  4. People have been noted to pass out from overheating and dehydration.
  5. Don wear clothes you would normally go to a regular yoga class to. Less is best, for wider mobility. If you wear clothing like this, it can impede the flow of blood and increase your chances of becoming lightheaded. (aka, go shirtless, spandex, spandex, spandex!)
Umm, why do people do this? Yes, I want to lose weight, not not while on the verge of death and smelling like death!

I told the lady thank you and made my way to my car. I could still smell the sweat on me! It invaded my car! I didn't even participate and I had to go home and shower!!!!!

Monday, February 12, 2018

Spiritual Retreat: The Much Needed Vacation for My Body and Soul

A friend of mine called me last week saying that he had planned to go to a weekend retreat, in which one was able to relax, get massages, meditate, and "rediscover yourself." I replied back "Hey! Thats sounds great! I am sure you are going to enjoy it!"

"No, YOU'RE going to enjoy it!" he replied back. I was dumbfounded. Apparently he had made arrangements at this retreat but was not able to go, and since it was so last minute, he wasn't going to get his money back, so he asked me to fill in. I figure it was a great moment to run away from this crazy world, at least for a couple days.

All excited, I packed and off I was. Little did I know what I was getting myself into. Words like "fitness assessment", "functional fitness, "spin", and "pilates" were being thrown at me. I was getting overwhelmed. Was this my friend's trick on me? I asked, "Where does the meditation, massage, and relaxation part come in?" The lady smiled, and said, "Don't worry, you'll do all of that too!"

That smile seemed a little cynical. I was worried. I so wanted to go home. But I remained open minded and went forward. After going to my room, I had my "fitness assessment" done. I could tell the guy wanted to choose his words correctly as to not hurt my feelings of being obviously obese. "At least you are outside of the Obese Class III level." Was that suppose to make me feel good?

A lot of the activities made me fight my internal demons and pushed the outer limits of my comfort level. Especially when new things that I have never tried was introduced. Barre, Spin, and Pilates were absolutely crazy! But some of the yoga, suspension straps, and stretching classes were totally awesome! I could do those!!

The sunset meditation yoga was hella awesome! It was well worth going through the sheer torture and body abuse during the day. Beautiful view of the sunset, relaxation, and not so strenuous yoga poses was just my speed.

The massages were "interesting" to say the least. There is nothing like being massaged on the beach under a canopy and being able to hear the waves, feel the breeze and enjoy the view. Although the choice of attire was a little unsettling. Disposable thong or disposable boxers. That was just too odd. I am so use to just going to my monthly massage appointment in just my boxers, but disposable, one size fits some, paper feeling undergarments. I didn't even think these existed!!!! I prefer my personal massage therapist, but she did a  great job! I swear she was practicing her WWE moves on me!

Of course food is important. I think they spend more time on their amenities than their food. Fresh vegetables, probably, presentation, meeh, I could probably do better at home, but I was too busy enjoying the moment to even think of food!

All in all, it was a great experience. Too bad Monday had to occur in my life......




Monday, February 5, 2018

Mindfulness Yoga

Yesterday, I posted about how I really wasn't into the Super Bowl Game, so I was going to check out the Mindfulness Yoga class. I admit, I was a bit hesitant at first, but decided to go. But it wasn't without more demons in my head.

It took me a good thirty minutes to decide what to wear. It's typically me. I was thinking what others have worn in previous yoga classes that I have taken previously, and also looking on the internet to see what was done in the class.

It was storming and so I really didn't want to wear too much and be all soaking wet, being that I didn't want to change in the locker room and risk my stuff being stolen. t-shirts, after t-shirts, shorts, after shorts, I finally decided and was out the door.

I made my way to the room after checking in, and maneuvered my way covertly to the corner of the room, so as to be my invisible self, and not to attract unwanted attention. There were only a few people there, and like any other yoga class, the majority were women and a few men.

One thing I can appreciate about Yoga, is that even the most experienced person can look unseasoned, so at first, it was a little overwhelming to see the guy next to me out stretching and letting his breathing be heard.

As the class started, the lights went dim, the new-age meditation music started and the instructor started to talk. She pointed out that this was less about the posture and the poses and more about what your body is trying to tell you. I think I can handle that......

We start off with meditation and some breathing exercises. There have been a lot of postings on Facebook about people passing gas in Yoga classes, so that is running through my head. I commanded/demanded my self that I am not going to be one of them, or I too will have to suffer the defeat and embarrassment of the whole situation and write an article of my humiliation.

"Kindess and acceptance" was the key to all the movements and poses we were doing. Since this was more of being connected to what the body was saying to you, I think a lot of the experienced Yoga people were having a little hard time. I guess it's a different mindset from regular Yoga classes, I was just concentrating on myself and not farting!!!

All in all, it was a good session. There is nothing like being able to put your legs up on the wall and not getting busted!

Sunday, February 4, 2018

The Super Bowl Hype That Didn't Happen

For millions today, they will be waking up early to preform their yearly Super Bowl Rites and Rituals in order to get ready for today's game. Unfortunately, I am not one of them this year.

As much as I am a sports junkie, I somehow cannot muster up the excitement for this years game. Yes, I am happy that a team that has not been to a Super Bowl in a while has made it this far, but that is about it.

All the hype of a weird year, that is the NFL, will come down to today. Taking a knee for the National Anthem, outrageous fines, what ever, it will surely take center stage this evening.

One report says that the NFL has lost touch with it's base and that includes me. I think in this whole season, I've watched only one game, and not even in it's entirety.

This morning, I went the market to pick up a few things. It was not as packed with people in previous years. Maybe everyone went last night. Who knows. But it just does not feel like a festive moment today.

I think I'll hit up the gym while the game is going on and then maybe hit the mall. I am in need of new clothes. There is only so much a belt can do. I also signed up for a "mindful yoga" class, so we'll see how that goes.

Thursday, February 1, 2018

One Month Anniversary


One month ago, we ushered in 2018 with many goals and aspirations. I told myself I was going to gain better control over my health and my body. Unlike any resolutions I've made in the past, I think this one by far, is probably the only resolution I have kept this long.

Yes, it is due to many people, not just me, and through all the feelings of failures and successes, I think I am on the right track to becoming healthier. My doctor talked about consistency yesterday, so in using the same scale, in the same place, every day, I have lost (according to my scale....see previous post) 16 pounds in one month. Hmm, now that I see that, is that healthy???

I am feeling great (well, I still resisted wanting to post pictures of my body, but its up...blah!), confronting the demons in my mind, and yesterday's physical gives me hope and confidence that I am doing something good.

I don't know how true the stats are on this Blogger Stats thing, but over 200 people have jumped on this blog to see what in the world this guy is up to, no subscribers (please subscribe!), but that is okay! I thank you for coming by to read my posts, see my pictures and comment here and there. I try to reply back, so please feel free to comment! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!! It is because of all of you I am continuing this fight, hopefully I am inspiring you to join the crusade to reclaim your health and lose weight! Hey, if I can do it, SO CAN YOU!!!

Here's to a great emotional one month! Lets eat steak! NOT!

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

The Tale of Two Scales

I went in for my doctor's appointment. I admit, I was filled with mixed emotions going into it. I have full of hopes being that the scale was moving in the direction that I wanted it to go. I was optimistic and yet open to hear what he was going to say about the numbers I produced through my blood test.

The first thing I did this morning was jump on the scale to see how much I weighed going into this appointment. Now according to my scale, since I first started this whole thing, I am suppose to have lost a total of 15 pounds!!! Great right? I was all happy!!!

Fast forward to my jumping on the scale at the doctor's office. What does it read? 241!!! No! That can't be right!!!! But then 7 pounds isn't too bad too, right? How can my scale be off by 8 lbs.?

Immediately in my head that stupid Christmas song "The Restroom Door Said Gentleman" played in my head. Someone must be playing a joke on me! Blah!!! All my confidence just went down the toilet. However, that pep talk from "Superhero Man" started to play in my head. It must have had a calming affect on me because my blood pressure wasn't high.

As if to play on my nerves, the next 45 minutes waiting in the exam room was pure torture! All those stupid comic strips of being over weight, not exercising and eating right seemed to be laughing at me!

First thing the doctor walks in, he is looking at the notes and blurts out, "Not bad, you lost 4 pounds since I last saw you!" In a total unprecedented moment of utter self defeat, I said "Dems fighting words!" He looked at me and I started to tell him how disappointed I was that in my books, I had lost  15 lbs., but really only 4 lbs., and that I was a little upset that my scale was off by 8 lbs.

He laughed and was explaining how all scales are different and how even in his office al this scales read differently, the main thing is to be consistant. Blah, was that suppose to comfort me? To comfort myself, since his words were lack luster, I drew things out on paper, and this is going to be my official story if people ask me about today's visit. I think it's totally plausible.

So if I was 245 lbs at my last doctor's visit, my scale would have read 237 lbs. Since then, the holidays happened, and so I could see myself hitting 248 lbs on my scale on January 1st. On the doctor's scale it would have read 256 lbs. I have been that heavy previously. So then at my next weight in on January 8, my scale read 240 lbs., and so my doctor's scale would have read  248 lbs. So then today would make total sense, 233 lbs. on my scale and 241 lbs on the doctor's scale! So maybe there is something to that consistency thing. Sorry Doc, you right!

As far as my numbers from the blood test, he says that there is nothing really to worry about. It's a mix of genetics, false positives as my triglycerides is now way down, but my cholesterol is still a little high. So there is some stuff I can still work on.

All in all, I am ok with the outcome, there is still a lot more work to be done. I think at this point I am good with the direction I am going, considering that I have no map in front of me, and "just shooting from the hips", as they say.


Tuesday, January 30, 2018

Attention Members and Guests! Rash of Break-ins at the Gym


In recent weeks, the gym I go to has been a target of a rash of break-ins and theft. In one weeks time, three cars have been broken into and many lockers both in the men's and women's have been broken in to and had things stolen. Many people are up in arms about how the gym management seems like they really don't care. My thinking is that they really have their hands tied. It is mall management who refuse to install cameras in the parking lot. So it is easy for people to break in to cars especially at night. This mall management are bunch of asses. They have been slowly driving out the local retailers and bringing in mainland franchise restaurants and stores.

The gym has several cameras to look out at the property. However ummm duh, they are not going to put cameras in the locker rooms! Hello!

I think people just have to be extra careful, buy better locks, leave valuables out of plain sight or at home. I really don't have anything with me when I go. If you break into my locker, all there really is are my extra clothes, swim wear, stuff for the shower and my towel. Car keys are on me, well except for when I swim, but now I started to walk considering its exercise and I don't have to worry about my car being broken in to.

What is this world coming to? Be careful out there!!!

Monday, January 29, 2018

The Pep Talk That Started With Me Almost Shittin In My Pants!

Since this whole thing started, I have been trying to keep to myself to fight all the demons, and face my fears, yes even the one of going to the gym to work out. I am still the one in the corner riding the bike, slowly meandering to the weight machines, trying not to make eye contact with anyone, and quickly retreating to the pool to swim, relax in the hot tub, shower quickly, change quickly, and I am out of the door! Mind you, at this time of night, it's not like I am trying to hide from anyone, there is hardly even anyone there, sometimes it's just me!

In my mind, I have made up names to the people who are normally there. I have done that with the people who either stand out or were regulars. People like "Jeans Man", the guy who works out in his jeans and white undershirt, "Bruce Lee", the Asian guy who wears a matching yellow sweatshirt and sweatpants, "Miss America" who I swear does not work out, just waves and talks story to people, and then there is "Old Lady Silver Sneakers", the super strong elderly lady who is super strong and could probably kick your ass if you are mean to her.

At night, there is "The Lady Formerly Known as The Thong Sweat Lady", I introduced her in a previous post, who now is dressed a little more and now cleans down her machines, There is "Mr. Olympia" buff man who every so often will strike a pose in the mirror. He's another one that kind of just keeps to himself. When you pass by and just accidentally make eye contact, you'll get a "sup!" and a smile if he's not doing anything. I return the favor, it's the least I can do. Every so often he'll go into the excersize room and strip off his workout clothes and do his posing routine in the mirror in his underwear, posing suit, what ever you call it. He's crazy big!

Every so often there is "Mr. and Mrs. Smith", although they are Asian, it just came to mind. They are the husband and wife team who are constantly motivating each other and spotting each other. 
Outside in the pool area, there is "Military Man" and his "Companion" I hate to assume, but they carry on as if the gym is there "secret rendezvous" point. Him in his short military shorts and her in her seductive ways and clothing full on making out in the pool, hot tub or steam room. I just want to yell "Eww! Get a room!"

Recently there is "Superhero Man". Not the super buff person like "Mr. Olympia", just "toned" I guess you would say. I am deftly afraid of him, for some odd reason, although I know it's just in my head. 

He comes in, shakes hands with whoever is at the front desk, goes to the locker room to change and comes out to workout. He kind of waves to "Mr. Olympia" as if it were some formality. He's always dressed in a long sleeve compression shirt, shorts and tights. Always matching, all red, all blue, or all black. He'll eye roll "The Lady Formerly Known as The Thong Sweat Lady." Looks like there is no friendship at all there! He is one of those who I don't make eye contact and pray a little prayer of invisibility if I ever need to pass him, while at the same time, I don't want to make it seem like I am unfriendly and trying to snob him.

I pass him and through my ear phones I can hear him, "Hey! Hey you!" I look over in his direction and point at myself, "Who me?" I am super scared, I feel small and want to run away, but it feels as it I need to see what he wants or I'll get beaten up. Kind of like that scene in Christmas Story when Scot Farkus is calling out to Richie and his friends. He nods.

"Yes?" I answer as I come to the side of the bench he is working on. "Come try help me a little bit. Can you spot me?" Of all the people in the gym, why does he pick me out? I am sure "Mr. Olymipa" could spot him with just his pinky! He is just a few benches over.

I reluctantly spot him. I grow even smaller as he is now making faces and quietly moaning as he is lifting the weights. I help him to put the bar back up at the end of the set. I thought it was all over. I get the feeling he senses my fear and starts up a conversation.

"You know..... I've been watching you......" he starts off.  All these thoughts are going though my head as I am trying to make sense of where this conversation is going. Is he trying to hit on me? Did I do something wrong? Do I know him outside of the gym?

Then he delivers a pep talk that I probably have been looking for through out this journey. He was talking about not giving up. Somehow in his scanning of me over the past few weeks, he pictured his former self. He talked about how he was overweight and wanted to make a change in his life and all the challenges that he went though. Where was this all coming from? Why did he decide to reach out to me?

Out of curiosity, I asked him. I felt like such a wise ass for asking. He said he was glad he asked, because he didn't know if I would accept his words of wisdom. Suddenly, this spandex clad man truly became a super hero in my books. I admitted to him that I was scared of him even though it was just pure mind games. He laughed as he shook my hand. It was such a father-son moment, even though he couldn't be as old as my father. He just wanted to assure me that he was there if I ever needed help and that he'd be there to be that one to give me that extra drive. He just wanted to aspire me, since I was just like him.

We talked more and parted our ways as I went to the pool and he called it a night. As I swam, his worlds were constantly replaying in my mind. Never mind the music coming through the earphones. It was all about perseverance, making goals, rehearsing them daily. Also in there were jabs about attacking those machines like I own them and not "mousing" over to them and getting overwhelmed. Dam I should have taken notes!

This morning as I meditated, my meditation was in appreciation to him and his words. Fear turned into encouragement. For me, I think I needed to hear the stories of failure and rising up. If it were all about success, I think more and more I'd feel like a failure.

I think I am going to have a different feeling tonight in the gym, one of more courage and grit. Thank you "Superhero Man"! Your words last night was just the medicine I needed, especially heading into my doctor's appointment this week!


Friday, January 26, 2018

To Hell With Those Numbers! The Journey CONTINUES!

Despite yesterday's asinine numbers, I have decided that I am not going to give up. I am 26 days into this and failure is not an option at this point! I am not going to give up because of some stupid numbers.

As I reflected on the numbers and printed out a different graft that was available online, I came to the realization that it really wasn't too bad. Most if not all are still in the normal range.

Last night I still swam, and this morning I still went walking. Jumped on the scale and now I am 11 pounds lighter than when I first started at the beginning of the month. I am still hopeful and optimistic that things will get better.

During my workout last night and this morning, I was listing to my newest "WakeUpTime" album titled "Motivation for Workout and Personal Growth." Loving it!!! Just the medicine I needed to keep the fight up.

This morning on my walk, I saw my Kangen Water lady. She said that in her experience, many people experience a spike in their numbers before it starts to normalize. I guess I hit my body's reset button or upgrading to a new operating system. That gave me further hope that all of this is a phase and that its going to get better.

I mean what's the worse that can happen? I am always getting scoldings from the doctor anyways.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

The Results Are In! NOT a HAPPY CAMPER!

Yesterday I went in to my blood lab work for my up coming doctor's appointment. I had to admit, I was optimistic about what the lab results were going to be like. I am exercising more, watching what I am eating, and have lost some weight.

I got the results this morning, and I must say, IS ALL OF THIS HARD WORK WORTH IT? Seems like the answer is "NO!"

Seems like my numbers were well when I was enjoying those delicious greasy hamburgers, pasta, chocolate, and all those other things. Since September of 2016 all the way up to my previous lab work in September of 2017 (four appointments), you can see the gradual decline in the numbers, but then now, it shot right back up. it's like a big check mark on all the graphs.

It's disappointing to be working very hard to see these kinds of numbers. It's like a big slap in the face to change this lifestyle when my numbers were all good. Its not good for my self-esteem, my self image, myself-conscious self.

Tuesday, January 23, 2018

23 Days In, and I Am Starting to Need New Clothes!

It's been 23 days since I started this new journey. I can confidently say that I am feeling good despite still wanting to take mid day naps. I am now 11 pounds lighter than when I first started. While there is no significant discernible appearance, or at least from my perspective, I have slowly started to get rid of some of the clothes that I have been wearing.

I don't know if I am just hallucinating, or its the power of suggestion, but I have started to notice that some of my clothes have been getting bigger to the point that some stuff are getting baggy, and I have started to wear clothes that I haven't been wearing for over 10 years now.

I have started to go to stores that I could not imagine myself going into. The great thing is now I can find clothes that ACTUALLY FIT!!! The Clearance section has clearly become my friend! How can you beat 2 pairs of shorts and 2 shirts all for less than $75?

Last night at the gym, there was an informational table set up in which this lady was trying to sell the C3fit line of compression wear. She went on to explain the 3-C's, Compression, Conditioning and Comfort.

Apparently in Japan, this C3fit line of compression wear are considered to be "Certified General Medical Devices." I still doing know what that means, or if it's just some marketable ploy to get you to buy.

She went on to explain that these compression shorts, tights, knee and arm sleeves promote blood circulation, supplies the body oxygen and nutrients, all the while conditioning your bodying reducing recovery time. In daily use, it reduced swelling in the legs.

There have been several scientific studies done over the years, and so I guess there is some truth to what she was claiming.

Her big thing was that it was developed using Japan "Standards" and that over 100 prototypes were tested with 200,000 to 300,000 areas on the body were scanned to gather the right information needed to produce the final product. Legs were scanned before and after use to get a better understanding of leg swelling and evaluate its effects on swelling reduction.

In the Men's Health Magazine, there was an article about compression gear that said:

But be warned: The same reason that compression gear “feels nice”—mainly, the clothing’s nut-caressing properties—is also why it may not look so nice to others.  
“It gives off a lot of information, if you know what I mean. That can make other people uncomfortable,” says MH Fashion Editor Brian Boye.  
His advice is to treat tight gear like underwear. “Wear it as a base layer, under traditional gym clothing,” he says.

I really don't care what people think, no I take that back, especially since I am the one trying to be invisible in the gym while working out, I should "To each his/her own", whether you are trying to "showoff your goods" or trying doing what these compression gear is marketed to do, I think that it is important to take care of your body, so if you decided to wear compression clothing, good for you, if you don't, I think you should consider it. After all, this is the only body we have.

I am just all excited that I am able to wear smaller sized clothes, let alone, now I should be taking care if it!!!




Monday, January 22, 2018

Does Anyone Cheat BEFORE Their Blood Work or Doctor's Appointment?

This week should be fun. I am preparing myself physically and mentally for my first doctor's appointment since this whole "lifestyle" change. I am clearly nervous!!! I have found myself needing to do a little more, anticipation of wanting to look good. Just as is, with the continuous days of eating well, and exercising more, I already assume that the numbers will look good, but I have come to terms with the saying "When you assume, you make an ASS out of U and ME."

I highly doubt the part about "U", because the doctor will not be an ass, he'll probably just scold me and point out some of his cartoons on his wall. I hate those comics, it's like it makes me laugh and also mocks me at the same time.

I remember when I was younger, this fire man that use to live down the road from me use to exercise more before his physical. Is that considered cheating?

I find myself wanting to do more, especially since I feel the need to impress my doctor that I am actually doing something for my health. It's as if this change is not enough.

He's already given me options like surgery and all these programs, one of which said I don't qualify, but I really don't want to do it. I want to do it on my terms.

This week I have to do blood and urine tests. I am drinking a lot of water and now being super picky at what I eat. Yesterday, I had a party to attend, I stuck to the mixed greens and skipped all that luscious chicken, fish, spareribs, cake and other desserts. BLAH!!!!

Thursday, January 18, 2018

Oh the Weather Outside is Frightful, But the Massage Will Be Delightful (AND Frightful)!

While our friends and family on the mainland are freezing, I should not be complaining that it's 68 degrees here with winds 20-30 miles an hour with some occasional gusts of up to 70 miles per hour. But boy, it's chilly out this morning! Great weather to stay indoors and do nothing!

As much as I wish I could do that, I did manage to get some walking around the neighborhood done, which is a nice 2 miles and I did get some laps in also. Mornings at the gym are packed with those "silver sneakers", so I don't even try to move in on their "territory." I love those "Excuse me, but you are on MY bike."......

I have more respect than to make a scene, so I'll just come back later to workout (Pool was empty since it is so windy and cold!). I cannot wait to turn their age and repeat those same words to some young innocent person! Not to mention the senior citizen price coffee and discounts!

Later on today, I will be having my first massage of the New Year. I purchased one of those memberships at the massage joint that I go to, but only have been racking up the credits, so I decided, its time to go on a more frequent basis.

I guess its my self consciousness make me panic all the time. That's a bad habit of mine. Deep in my head I am always battling the voices of "What is the therapist going to think? I am so fat! I am going to break the massage table! I have all that back hair!" My latest thing now, especially since I have been drinking that Kangen Water is, that I have been breaking out with zits (apparently my body is detoxifying) all over my body. Paranoia is starting to set in.......

For me, it's not as bad as going to the gym, my therapist is getting paid to see my grossness, plus I am going to tip him after. I guess you could say that tip is apologies for having to see all that grossness.


Wednesday, January 17, 2018

The Weight Loss-Healthy Living Program The Told Me "No"

So there are a lot of health programs out there. You see them on television, radio and in the newspaper (Does anyone even read a newspaper now?). There was one that recently caught my eye and have always thought of giving them a call.

I was at a restaurant one day and some how, this lady and I started to talk while waiting for our take out order and the conversation came about this one particular program. She mentioned how she had gotten some great results, good enough where her husband joined her and told me to try it out.

I finally gained some motivation to give them a call, especially since my doctor too gave me some of his thoughts about this "program". (Notice how I didn't say what "program" this is thus far?)

So I gave them a call, answered a few questions, and they said they would have to send my doctor some paperwork to fill out and then they would get back to me..............

Nothing


So I called and they said I don't have a health history that would allow me to be in the program. "Huh? What?" I said. Apparently I have to have a history of all these health issues even before they would consider me.

Hello! I am severely obese (according to the BMI) I have other health issues and I get a "no"? Thats a little moronic. I am trying to gain some better knowledge about how I can get a better lifestyle and they are saying "I don't qualify"? What a way to pop the balloon!

Never mind then! I don't need you! I can look for something else!

Saturday, January 13, 2018

The Great Ballistic Missile Alert of 2018

Today will go down in history as one of the greatest mishaps in Modern Hawai'i History. Imagine being awaken from a early morning slumber by a squealing alarm from your cellphone and see the message on the left!

My heart was about to fall out my ass! Minutes later calls after calls concerning this message by frantic friends and relatives, some of which are giving, what they think, are their final goodbyes and "I love you."

Last year, we were told that if there was a missile  launch from North Korea, we would have 15 minutes until the missile would hit us here. Provided that the the first minute or two is uncounted, being that the satellites in space need time to even pick up the missile launch.

It's a Saturday morning! What the hell! I am going to spend the last 15 minutes of my life with no one around, and I cannot go anywhere! No bomb shelter, my wife is still at work, more than 15 minutes away! I'M SCREWED!!!!

She frantically calls me to say what she had heard and to get ready, she is on her way home. She wants me to pick up a few things from the market, so I reluctantly go. Is this the last time I am going to hear her? I tell her "I love you" and "Please don't worry." I doubt that has any reassuring qualities to it.

Minutes later, I find myself in the car listening to the radio. Slowly, some word is getting out that this is a false alarm. I get another call from my wife asking me where I was. I told her I had just arrived at the market and told her what I had heard. She's now super pissed off! She had been calling all over the island and to the mainland US reassuring her family that everything was going to be okay and giving her "I love you" also.

I grab whatever, and now it's 38 minutes after the initial alert and this alert comes on. A sigh of relief comes upon us. Later at home, slowly by slowly, more information becomes available. The Governor, the mayor and the head of civil defense are addressing the media.

Some "asshat" accidentally hit the wrong button as the work crew was transitioning from one shift to another. How the hell does that happen???

Someone's head is gong to be chopped off for this!!! Some are calling for the mayor and the governor to resign. Why? They didn't press the button!

More questions....more answers will be coming in the next few days.......

Thursday, January 11, 2018

I have found my hero! #progressisperfection

Silk launched a new campaign this week featuring Olympic champion Michael Phelps and "Greg", your atypical everyday man. "Progress is Perfection" I would guess highlights "Greg" in his daily conquest not to be like Phelps, but the hard working everyday man who toys to be healthy by drinking silk, riding his bike to the pool and swimming before work, who in of it's self is what "perfection" is all about.

"Greg" represents me and probably a lot of people, who try to do what is right. I think this campaign is great in timing, and the motivation I need to keep trekking along on my journey to wellness.

#progressisperfection














Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Wait, he's eating a SALAD???

I had a business lunch to go to, and without even thinking, I went straight for the salad section of the menu.

It was like I had done this before. I had the remark, "Wait, you're eating a salad?"

Sure I could have ordered pretty much anything, especially since the company was paying, but I simply made a health choice, which was just delicious!!!!

Good grief! Me turn down delicious Japanese food for a salad and not even think twice? What's wrong with me?????

We do frequent this restaurant a lot, from birthdays, to family gatherings and even Christmas. Now, I think I just may have found a new favorite. Especially since they recently changed their menu and all my favorites are gone.......

Monday, January 8, 2018

One Week Check In

One week ago we ushered in the New Year. 2018, I told myself was the year to reclaim my health. I was 248 lbs.

Today, just for kicks, I jumped on the scale out of curiosity to see how I have been progressing. Wow! 240 lbs.! I'll take that!!!

Just the motivation I needed to see today!

Here's to more Buddha Bowls, Kangen Water, no sodas, and no more ass sweat on weight benches and bikes!

Totally psyched today! I'm gonna have a giant greasy, oily burger!!! NOT!

*Sorry, no pictures, it's gross enough!!!

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Sunday, January 7, 2018

The Gym: The Self-Conscious Person's Worse Nightmare

A friend of mine recently suggested that I could go online to find some simple workouts for the gym. I hate the gym, I loath the gym. When I was growing up, I found every excuse NOT to go to the gym with my friends.

It smells of sweat, people with overactive testosterone, and just the weird feelings you get, especially when you don't look like them..... In shape. It can get a bit overwhelming, especially if you're super self-conscious like me.

One thing I can appreciate though is that the gym up the road from me is open 24 hours a day. So I can go workout, or at least "pretend" to workout while all the "meatheads" are sleeping. There is nothing more sedate than an empty gym to try and forge a relationship with something I hate so much, let alone using a "cheatsheet" to document a workout that I copied off the internet.

Normally, I would drive to the gym, but in trying to be all "healthy" and stuff, I decided to walk. Walking 9 at night??? What am I thinking?

Tonight was relatively quiet as this adonis rode the bike waaaaaaaaaaay in the corner, as to not drive attention to myself. iPod going, TV showing the latest NFL highlights and a few people here and there.

I head on over to the weight machines, my heart pumping in trepidation and anxiety. I am remembering why I hate this part of the gym. Luckily, a lady is wiping herself down and is slowly moving to weight bench.

I am praying that this workout goes by really fast so that I can go jump in the pool, an environment I am more comfortable in. My stomach is twisting and turning. I so want to be nonexistent right now.

The lady, now is doing biceps curls and staring at herself in the mirror. Her eyes are fixated on her form reflecting in the mirror. So narcissistic! She stands up to put her weights back, she is all sweaty as she walks back to get a drink of water from her water bottle. She walks away leaving her thong leotard ass sweat on the weight bench. So gross!!!! She has no second thoughts as to wiping it down. At least wear some pants! The 80's are over!!! Is she dressed like this thinking that she could get away by being so skimpily clad because it's not overly crowded?

She is now at the stationary bike, she is spreading more of her sweaty ass sweat around the gym. It reminds me of how a friend of mine recently got ring worms on his arm from dirty equipment. Even more I am regretting being in this gym. I am just mortified!

The hero of the night is now walking in her direction. Our hero is now scolding her and telling her to clean the equipment that she was using. The gym attendant now walks back to the counter and is watching our ass sweat friend intently.

I call it quits, wipe down my equipment and head to the locker room to change. No sense getting scoldings too!

I am going to have nightmares about this tonight!!! I still hate being in the gym, and tonight justified it even more!!!!!

Saturday, January 6, 2018

Buddha Bowls for ALL!!!!!

Who doesn't love food? If you don't, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?! One of the things that I have started to fall in love with are Buddha Bowls. The choices are endless and you could probably never eat the same thing over and over unless you choose to.

I've been told, that there is not "right" or "wrong" way to make it, but if you follow the super simple directions, you'd be done in no time, and simply enjoying this awesome and simple meal!

How can you go wrong with sweet potatoes, spinach, soba, edamame, avocado and some peanut sauce???

Super awesome stuff! I am sure you can find the right combination even for the pickiest eater!

Friday, January 5, 2018

Oh the Joys of Toys!


Yes, I have to admit, I am still a kid at heart, and I love my toys! Legos, Funko Pops, and electronics! iPods have been always the coolest things, I use mine for every facet of my life, even to swim. Yes, you can take it into the pool! Nothing like swimming and listen to music or an audiobook. But like anything, technology changes and so I have been through quite a few over the past couple of years.

I still find it rather odd that there were time that I have been in the middle of a chapter, of listening to a lecture, and it was getting to the good part and my workout was over. So I just merely muddle around the lane just to listen. People must think I am crazy!!! Sometimes, SOMETIMES, I will extend my swim. SOMETIMES................

Lately, I have been into motivational stuff. I recently downloaded "Motivation for Creativity, Overcoming Anxiety, Focus, Confidence" by Wakeuptime. Unless I am looking up the wring thing, there is really not too much info on this group. Never the less, I am loving it! I play it in the house, in the car, in the pool and even in the office. All it really is, is snippets of motivational talks set to music. I highly recommend this.  I don't even know how I found this, but I am loving it!!! There are more albums, and I am looking forward to getting them!


One of the things that I have been looking for, is a tracker device for swimming. Sometimes it's hard to keep track of things while I am swimming. Especially if I am listening to something, or concentrating. Swim Outlet, my go to website for swimming stuff is launching a new product in which I am having high hopes for. It's called "Spire". In the press release, it states that this "will allow users to track, log and analyze data from their swims just by putting on their favorite suit. The device will automatically start tracking when the suit is put on and data will sync to the phone over bluetooth where it is analyzed by Swim.com's advanced algorithms." Its a little device that's sewn into the suit.  No more will I have to worry about forgetting it at home!

The site says: The Spire Health Tag will offer several special features that make it a revolution in the world of swim-tracking and fitness wearables:
• No charging needed: the embedded battery lasts the life of your suit
• No buttons to press: just put on your suit and start swimming
• A low-profile, soft-touch and comfortable design that never interferes with the swimmer's feel for the water
• Automatic bluetooth syncing to get advanced swim tracking from Swim.com right on your smartphone
Starting this spring, customers will be able to choose from a wide variety of suits on SwimOutlet.com available with Spire Health Tag integration for Swim.com.

Customers will be able to customize their choice of swimsuit ordered from SwimOutlet.com with the exclusive Spire Health Tag integrated for only $30 in addition to the price of the suit.

I am all for that! Now I really don't have an excuse to get off my ass and swim! I am looking forward to this! I wish it came in time from Christmas or sooner!


Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Soda! Soda! Soda!

There was a point in my life where a cup like this was heavily involved in my life. It was a 52 oz cup from 7-11. Can you imagine, I was able to drink 4 of these in one day? Yes! 208 oz of soda!!!

Now that I look back on it, I was crazy! I am lucky I don't have diabetes!!!

I have noticed that as I am getting older, my taste for things have changed quite a lot. Even the size of things. You figure, 208 oz of soda back then, and now days, I cannot even finish a Trenta sized iced tea from Starbucks in one day. That's 31 oz.

My taste for soda is almost, I said almost non-existent. I've noticed that it is too acidic for me now, and so I'll take an iced tea any day, or even water.

What was I thinking in those days??? Heck, I don't think I even drink that much water in one day! Speaking of which, I tried my best to drink half my body weight in oz of that Kangen Water yesterday. Not very successful, but boy did I have to go to the bathroom all day! 124 oz of water! I think it is recommended that on a daily basis, one is suppose to drink 64 oz of water, so that's about double that! I swam last night, and being the typical swimmer, I had no problems peeing in the water........Thank goodness for chlorine...........

Tuesday, January 2, 2018

Multivitamins and Water

Every time I go to the doctor, he asks me if I take any multivitamins. Hopefully I don't get scoldings at the end of the month by telling him that I have invested in three bottles of various "Performix" Brand Products.




At the recommendation of the folks at GNC, I am trying this regime. In the morning, I start off with the SST v2x. It's suppose to heighten my mental focus and help with fat metabolism.

I just think the blue and black beads in the capsule look cool!








Then at breakfast, which is usually a cup of yogurt, I have the Men's 8 hr Time-Release Multi with Fish oil and Prostate Complex. Its suppose to help with stress and increase energy. Does anyone really like the taste of fish oil? My burps have that gross fishy taste in it. Blah!!!







Then with lunch, I take the Time-Release Sport CLA. So CLA is suppose to help with weight management and blood sugar level, and has been recommended by my doctor.









So with all of that, lets see what happens.

Another thing that has been shared with me is Kangen Water. I don't know too much about ionized alkaline water, but since someone so graciously delivered to me and promised to deliver again, I will try it. Some of the health food stores have slowly brought in water machines that you can fill your water bottles with. So maybe it's worth trying. I don't know if I can drink 15 cups of water a day though....... Kangen suggests drinking half your body weight in ounces per day

Monday, January 1, 2018

In the Beginning

Ok, where do I begin?

In 2017, I officially became "old." I was diagnosed with several health issues. With that being the case, I started to take up several "holistic" approaches to maintaining my health. Some to which, have been great! Plus, I got to have some "Me" time.

Now, that 2018 has arrived, I have decided that health will be my main resolution for the year, and probably for the rest of my life.


Many health professionals still use the Body Mass Index (BMI) to gauge the body fat in adults. Let's do the math. So if I am 5'6 and 248 lbs, my BMI would be 40. That would put me in the "Extremely Obese" Category. Not a pretty thing to hear at my yearly physical. Especially since I swim and walk nearly every day. Noticed I said "nearly", and in our house, we really don't eat meat.

Using this graph, in order to be in the "Healthy" range, I would have to lose at least 98 lbs. Let's round it up to a good whole number. Let's say I have to lose 100 lbs.

Good Lord that's a lot!

Coming from the perspective of looking outward, I only see myself if I look at myself in the mirror. So spatially, structurally, psychologically and effectually,  the perspective that I have is based on the reflection through the mirror. To say the least, it's a little difficult to see the real perspective of what exactly I look like.

So if the primary goal of this blog is to even try to represent or encapsulate this journey, and not just add in the fluffy stuff, I have to get real. As the reader, I am assuming and hoping you are not here to fat shame me, and want to get some kind of motivation to lose weight and gain a foothold on a healthy lifestyle also.

So what exactly are we looking at? I was a competitive swimmer for a good part of my life, and I still swim, but not competitively. Thank goodness for "jammers", they can hide some of my fat. I still wear Speedos, but under my jammers. If there were no "jammers" this is the nightmare that would be walking out of the locker room, on to the pool deck.

I have to say though, thank goodness my local gym in open 24 hours a day and I can go swim at 11:00 at night when no one is really there. As you can see, the suit can't even contain my fat. I have to admit, only after I took these pictures, I was truly mortified at how big I truly am!!!

I think I needed to see this. I am a visual person, so at least I know what I have to work with.

YIKES!!!!!

Lets see how this goes!

I am wondering now if I dare take more of these pictures as the year goes by to see my progress. Wait, I take that back, I think it is necessary to visually see it not only on the weight scale, but on my body also.

I think I need a "graphic warning" label in the future, just to warn not only myself, but others who are reading this too.......

Ok, let's get this show on the road.